Its time for an update.Well yest went out with IS and frens accompanied him shopping.Was fun. Oh ya bumped into u. Tat was a surprise actually he he tat shows how much our path crosses each other. Even without planning to meet we ended up bumping into each other again.I was happy to see u even if its for a while before i hung out with Is and the rest went to Bugis to have dinner and then dunno where to go we headed to orchard and my was it packed. Its the season to be jolly so i am not surprise the crowd to be so big.

Hmm talking abt Christmas.. I wan a Sony ericsson earpiece!! Argh! too bad mine got spoiled.. Been a month since i lost it. Now i cant listen to the songs from my hp.. Anyway back to the topic we went to Heeren then we decided to go back to Cityhall to chill at the rooftop.. I jus love to be there.. Apart from being near the sea.. i love to be at high places... Its so spiritual.. At least to me tat is..

So cut story short went to Happy and met the CB gang along with IS frens.. The crowd was pathethic though but hey i tried to make the best of the 15 bucks i paid..

Honestly i was a bit upset u couldn't make it.. Nevertheless i manage to take it out on the dancefloor with Hilmi. We danced and i jus let all my feelings go..Hmm i really need help.. I am so afraid of this one particular thing.. Afraid to be lied at and toyed with.. Now i dunno how i should play my cards.. I dunno wats the right way to show ur devotion to someone whom u love.. i dunno if wat i am doing is the right way of showing my care.. Here is the list.. I would love to 1:talk on the phone each nite talking abt anything. 2: Share ur probs and at least try to make u feel happy by being there. 3: To bring u out on movie dates or a fun cycling or roller bladding at east coast. 4: To dance so close with u in the club and hopefully get to kiss u passionately on the lips.. 5: To be around u as much as i possibly could..Wat else do i miss.. Anyways these are wat i wanted to do.. Tats how i would shower my love and concern.. But then u said to take it easy.. So.. now i am taking it easy.. I have cut down on msging u and let alone calling u... But i know deep down tat would jus spell disaster.. Cos to me by doing tat i am cutting short my communication with u.. And when tat communication is less the chances of making a long lasting relationship is slim..

So.. wat am i suppose to do now.. i dun wan to do anything to jeopardise this relationship. True u said we are still new.. heck not even a mth together but let me tell u this.. i dun need to be with u for long to know wat kind of person u r. We are both scorpios so i can say i pretty much understand ur character.. ur ego.. ur pride.. Tell me if i am wrong.. Y dun u tell me how u want it to be... cos i dunno whether the direction i am going is the right one.. Anyone have any advices.. I am all ears.. Oh ya i never really show u this but i really hate it each time ur fren whom ask who u r with and u ended up telling u r with a fren instead of ur lover.. I understand u dun want that group of frens to know tat u r already attached cos ur afraid of the gossip they might spread.. But hey like i said.. ppl will never stop gossipping.. Ppl will never stop to find fault with u.. Its all a matter of how u handle them.. If ur conscience is clear u dun have to bother so much with the tell tale tellers cos when they realise they cannot break u they end up getting embarassed themselves..i know its easier said than done but its not impossible jus need the determination..

This is ur life.. U dun expect some bad eggs to ruin it.. U have the right to choose whether to let them do tat to u or either tat u jus dun pay attention to them and carry on with more other important stuff.. U said u disappeared for 2 years jus to stop them from gossiping but now u r back and does the gossiping stops.?? No it doesn't now its some other new gossips.. So need i say more.. we r both scorpios and i know we can be stubborn sometimes.. but can u at least try to understand wat i am trying to say.. I dun wan u to live in fear of ppl who are jus waiting to talk abt u..I wan u to face it and live the life as happily as u can.. U have problems well so do everyone. TIs is not a fairytale life..U can't expect things to go ur way.. I care abt u.. If only i can say all this to u and make u realise tat u have nothing to fear.. someone help me..