The interview today sucks.. i jus dun wanna say much but i was pretty disappointed...SO when its over i was pretty much on the lows... A little bit carried away well maybe but hey i am human afterall..

All i can say it sucks big time.. Never have i felt so deranged.. Oh well i cant give up now.. Jus need to look ahead and try harder. yeah easier said than done.. Dunno why.. maybe the depression is getting a toll on me so i fried myself some crinkle cut fries and gorged myself down..

Now i feel like crap.. Its time i am gonna start my atrocious dieting... Mad? maybe i am..

Oh ya i jus finished watching Cheaper by the dozen part 1.. man tat show really gives me a hard time. jus make me eyes watery.. how cool if i could have a family togetherness like tat.. I never really experience tat.. It jus saddens me.. Oh well tats life.. Its never fair..