i've been having this prob for quite sometimes now.. I need a job badly.. I need to earn the money to pay off my outstanding hp bill.. I recieved the final notice..Haiz there is nothing i can do abt it.. worst come to worst if i am evicted into court then i guess i have no choice but to go thru it..

Haiz.. if only i am working now.. i feel sad... helpless... broke... Ask help from my brother? well he would never help. He is so called trying to teach me the hardship of life as if i dunno anything abt it. As if i am not going thru wat he is going thru. Sometimes i jus wish he come to his senses and open up his eyes and observe wats going with me and mum..

We r crying out in silence.. especially me.. i am suffering in silence.. Wat can i do now... No one will understand me.. no one will know wat i actually am facing now.. I know i cant run away and i am not... i am facing it actually.. Its jus a matter of time.. Its like a criminal who is charged with life sentence awaiting his death sentence...

If only i have a job.... I am a dead man walking...