Its raining tonite.. As i look outside my bedroom window the surroundings are so calm.. Wet and slippery and short breeze blows into my bedroom once a while.. The atmosphere is so calm.. But i cant say the same with me..I am not myself today jus dunno why seems to be moody. Guess lots of things are on my mind.. Sucks man.. Jus sux big time.. One thing abt being me its jus tat i am unpredictable. So annoying at times.. Not tat i want to be tat way though..

I am rage and at the same time half dead but nevertheless manage to put on a false fascade. Dun ask me how i do it but i guess being a scorpio tat makes me good at hiding my real emotions and jus look as cheerful as if i have nothing to worry abt in tis world.

Maybe tat explains why i could'nt really sleep last nite.. Toss and turn till dawn and still can't get to sleep. Have u ever felt like u r sleeping but then u feel u r awake and aware of the surrondings ard u. No? Well tats wat i felt last nite..I think i am beginning to loose myself huh. Ha ha ha and oh ya i shave my goatie..Wrong Move! Now i look sucky.. Ok maybe over-reacting a bit here but hey self confidence is impt to me k. Which also explains y i think i look terrible in today's photo-taking session muahahaha. Probably maybe i dun really have the mood..

Oh well sucky sucky sucky day.. i hate it bleargh..