My life is tumbling down.. As i write down this entry i can feel my chest pain once again..Its like hundred of needles is piercing on ur skin..Nevertheless i need to write this down to get things off my chest..

Gosh my breathing is getting acute.. i am getting nowhere with the situation i am in now. If only i didnt take this half day.. But my head hurts this morning..Ppl might jus say another excueses... Man.. y am i such a wreck nowadays..

What's happening to me....Y do i let myself land in this situation. Y.. Deep down i know later i need to go to work and face the consequences. Whatever it might b..jus need to brave up and face watever is thrown at me later..

Am gonna be prepared for the sack.. Then am back to square one looking for another job.,..

I had an interesting weekend with my baby... I love u b.. Jus wait for my suprise.. Now to the most upsetting part... My hp got washed in the washing machine!!! Yep its totally a gonner now.. sob sob. This makes it the 2nd time.. Its so upsetting.. Now i cant even contact anyone..

Haiz things are jus goin bad for me now.. I need to get it together.. i am falling apart.. DO u know how much it hurts when u r unable to spend wat u've planned for tat special evening with your loved one.. Once again i am a disappointment.. The empty feeling u get when someone pass u a present and u dun have anything to exchange it with.. and wats worst u have to thicken ur skin and accept the gift..

Dunno how i could overcome tat awkwardness..

Its also sad tat i can never get a hold of my money... why is it always dries up when its like one or 2 weeks away from my pay day.. Haiz..How can anyone possibly be in love with this loser.. How...

Now i need to shed off some pounds... to be exact 6kg need to be losen.. Well now tat so many bad things have happen.. it would be easy to have no mood to eat..i am goin to starve myself... At this moment.. i hate myself. loser loser loser loser!!!!!y dun i jus get into an accident and die....

yay my comp is alright.its a miracle that it works fine..cos i tot its gone for good but i dunno why i had to try switching it on again and miraculously it start up fine.. phew.. wat a relieve.

Lately work has been piling up. I am going thru this phase again which i went thru in my previous company. Oh well cant complain cos its wat i am paid to do. so jus try my best to make everything work. Hope lady luck shines on me this week and make my week a pleasant one.

Till the next update. Take care. P.S this cough is killing me.