Been feeling immense pain on my wisdom tooth lately. But last nite the pain got so immense, my nerves ard my left side of my face got so firm it throbs like mad.. Dealt with it till 4am where it got so intense. I had no choice but to take the mc for today eventhough work was piling up..

Wats so infuriating the reply i got from my chief saying i am not committed enough . For the first time i talk back saying all these while i been staying late too almost the whole week including weekends. And u r sayin i am not committed? i do my work the best way i know how and when i cant stay i cant i have other commitments as well..

Dunno if his replied meant well he said "i jus hope everything is allright"

If he is gonna fire me then i guess i will accept it.. I had enough, We all have our fair share of stress.. I work my ass off and tis is wat i get..I am ready for watever might comes tomorrow. though his reply sounds positive.. jus wait till tml.. he might have other motives

MEt up with my Ariz, Shook and IS the usual frens i hang out with.. It was great la though i woke up with a slightly swollen eyes. Cos the night before was feeling irritations in my eyes. Ended up putting an ice cube over my right eye due to excessive rubbing earlier on. It felt as if my eyes wanna pop out feels so heaty and itchy.

Nevertheless never stop me from having a good time with my frens. Were suppose to catch the 1255 movie Poltergay. Yup u read it right Poltergay not Poltergeist. he he. Well i must say its lam yet hilarious. since the seats were mostly occupied the four of us had to opt for the couple seats. Must say its pretty comfy. wink wink.

Anyway had so much fun takiing pics as usual courtesy of Ariz digi cam. Dun leave home w.o it. he he Below are the pics. Oh ya went to the john little there to check up on RAW new sets of boxer briefs.. Sad to say no new collections yet. I am so gonna collect funky boxer briefs,.. weeee. So nice.. Ok right to the pitures.

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Back again.. been a while since i last blog.Well it has been a bz bz time for me.. Oh well work will never end. I was having it up to the neck but managed to keep it cool. Enuff abt work.Hmm been goin thru some sad moments lately.. Regardin my mom..Haiz she is sad cos now she felt more alone since her son is married. I jus dunno how to cheer her up.. I work all the time and whenever i had to do OT i would be thinking will she be ok..

I know loneliness can bring to other things... like deteteorated health.. I dunno i jus dunno wat to do.. haiz..

I am trying my best to make time for all the ppl i love. my set of frens.. my life partner.. andd all but i cant be there as much as i wanted.. not with this job tat i am doing now.. I love them all.. i jus wan them to know if i am silent doesnt mean i dun remember u guys.. u guys are and will always be in my heart. Each allocated to their own space in this small hart.. and yang.. i love u god knows how much.. eversince i met u my life has been more colorful..

Today had to come back to work cos of the dateline tml.. Jus imagine one person handling for diff engineers with diff needs. So far everything has been smooth until the last engineer joins in which is the China man.. Not tat i have anything against them jus for this particular one he doesnt even know how to organize himself let alone to amend the blue prints.. I reprimanded him yet he still do the same. Thus leading me staying back almost everyday even today.. And i cant still cant meet the dateline. His writings and amendments are so messy. so unprofessional.. Oh well tml judgement day stil have 1 and half drawings more to complete..

Tat aside.. Kinda sad couldnt watch the fireworks today let alone with the one i love.. haiz.. was my resolution to watch it with some one special tis yr but ended not.. haiz.. wat a day.. sucks..

ALONE
So many things happened for the past weeks. My brother finally got married. It has been a long tiring weekend for me as so many things to do and the part of cleaning the house.. Apart of tat it was great mingling with my cousins and all.. Been so long since everyone gather together.

But along come happiness come sadness as well. When u are always alone, every individual matters.. But my mom is the one who feels more depressed.. Bcos now when i am away to work she would be alone.. As matter of fact she jus told me she been crying these past few days whenever she is alone.. Gosh i jus dunno how to reply back cos honestly i can feel her sadness.. How i wish i could make her feel happy... But wat can i do.. Reality bites..

I am utterly speechless and deep down i feel as alone as she is.. Mom,, my biggest fear is to loose u.. Then i would be really alone.. Alone in this hse.. No one to wake me up.. no one to wait for me when i come home late.. and no one to joke ard with..

I know tat day would come its jus a matter of time... Sad..