BEFORE


AFTER

Well its really not a big make over and i did not do it on me. Its for Khai!! Yea.. Ha ha ha today went out with him and first thing first i dress him up with my baige shirt with some squares designs printed on it. Then when we were window shopping we came across this shop at Peninsula Plaza.

The shop is called LP man.. i love everything there and there is this high cut shoe which caught my attention. I have always been a freak ffor a high cut shoes. So there it was laid on the display. So damn cool! Now i jud cant wait for my pay and ya there is this blazer which is so damn nice i jus have to get it!!!

Ok tats next on my wish list. Anyway Khai was trying on some jackets until my eyes lay on some blazers which i too liked so i ask him to try it on! man it looked damn nice on him and the new hair style which i helped him to style. Everything falls into place, he look so diff and much better..

The interview today sucks.. i jus dun wanna say much but i was pretty disappointed...SO when its over i was pretty much on the lows... A little bit carried away well maybe but hey i am human afterall..

All i can say it sucks big time.. Never have i felt so deranged.. Oh well i cant give up now.. Jus need to look ahead and try harder. yeah easier said than done.. Dunno why.. maybe the depression is getting a toll on me so i fried myself some crinkle cut fries and gorged myself down..

Now i feel like crap.. Its time i am gonna start my atrocious dieting... Mad? maybe i am..

Oh ya i jus finished watching Cheaper by the dozen part 1.. man tat show really gives me a hard time. jus make me eyes watery.. how cool if i could have a family togetherness like tat.. I never really experience tat.. It jus saddens me.. Oh well tats life.. Its never fair..

Yesterday was a very unexpected day for me cos i recieved a call from Hewlett Packard asking me for an interview. Man was i ecstatic! Never expected them to call me so fast cos i was told they would call me up after CNY. Well its tomorrow at 4 at depot road. Actually i am suppose to be nervous but i dunno why i am so calm and looking forward to the interview. Though this is my first time applying for the manufacturing sector i feel like i would fit in jus nice like i always do with the other indurstries..

Well yesterday i sent my Zara locker key back and was sad to see tat most of the frens i made there were'nt ard. I wanted to bid them one last goodbye.. Miss them... Oh well maybe its for the better.

I jus hope i nail the interview tml. Honestly i dunno wat they will ask... Hope not those hard to answer questions.. All i can do is be honest with myself..

Oh ya last nite while hanging out at mcdonalds i saw this event which jus send sympathy down my soul... It jus reminds me how fortunate i am not to go thru tat.. U see there was these 3 kids accomapined by a middle age mly woman..The kids were poorly dressed with bare feet.. Jus the sight of them makes me wish wat if i were in their shoes while i was ard their age... The mother was unkempt and shabily dressed.. I am not pitying them.. somehow i jus feel it relate to my life.. Maybe the motherly figure did.. It reminds me of my mom of how much she goes thru to bring her broken family up.. Writing abt it now is making me crying in tears.. Thinking abt the sacrifices she makes jus to make ends meet. Jus hope she be patient with me till i get a stable job.. I am going to make her happy.. No matter wat.. I always said if its time to go let it i go first cos i cant bear to see her go before me... I love u mom...

I asked my colleague to check for me the roaster for tml and i was suprised the manager cancel my name. I dun have to report for work anymore.. I know i should be jumping with joy cos finally i am out of tat place. But a part of me misses the frens i made there. Too bad.. the management sucks...

Am i foolish? i dunno... haiz.. Now jus need to wait for the HR to call me to ask me to take the cheque. tat would be in feb 5. if they never call me then i will call them..

Right now.. i dunno y.. i jus feel like going to Fort Siloso beach and seat by the shore and wait till sunrise...

TO my dear beloved.. TIs entry is solely for u..I know its been quite sometime since we get together.. And we learn so much abt each other... There is a lot more for us in store. so many things to find out abt each other. Dun worry k my beloved cos i will be here every step of the way..

I may not be able to satisfy ur every needs but hey i am trying my best to be the one for u. Sometimes emotions gets the best of me too but i always make myself stronger by putting u and everyone first.

Right now my aim is to get a stable job.. a better paying job. Blame me for being ambition at times but hey i am a man afterall. I have my dreams. I want to lead a happy life with my family and u of cos. i want to take bike and car license and live in a nice house which i design myself.

I dun want to worry abt being shortage of money... Tats why i am trying so hard looking for tat stable job. Cos i deserve it. I struggle so much to gain my diploma and i want something standard to it. Ya i am stubborn tats my trait i wont give up once i set my mind.

So be patient with me. I will never neglect u even how busy i am. Tat is my vow to u. cos i dun wan u to feel lonely.. U r special to me u r the one i think abt when i wake up and the one i think before going to sleep. Dun mean to be mushy here i am jus pouring out my feelings for u. No matter wat dear i will make our relationship work. True i do get jealous sometimes when i get to know tat u r meeting up with new ppl and being so nice and layankan karenah mereka .. Hey at least i am being normal cos matair mana yg tak jealous if they know their own baby is going out with other guys and make new aquaintances. but i realise i dun have anything to worry abt cos i know u will know ur limitations. Its ok to meet and make frens but not more than tat. and i would do the same too..

And last but not least dear U cant please everyone so stop worrying whether tat person likes u or not. Wat matter most is u r happy with urself.. Take care my dear. dun work ur ass off till u neglect ur own health..Its not worth it..

K firat thing first! i skip work today!!! muahahaha! so bad of me huh. Oh well jus cant wait to get out of tat place. my main worry is lets hope they pay me every single cent i work there. Secondly finally i managee to upload a song into my blog. Its been far too quiet here. Music soothes the savage beast.

Lets see.. today i am free.. dunno wat i am going to do with the free time.. Man.. can u imagine it. i am not the least worried abt coming up with a reason why i never go to work today.. supposingly i am to work full shift today meaning at 930am to 10pm. But i can barely wake up jus now. so yea i decided wat the heck lets play truant since i am leaving soon. ,muahaha.

Its been a while since i last hang out with my frens.. gosh how i miss them.. dunno when i'll get to see them again.. Probably after i get my pay huh tat would be 5th February... oh well till the next time. i am gonna take a shower. Enjoy the music.. hehe

First of all sorry guys for not updating.. Dunno why la jus got so caught up with work tat i became so tired and lazy to update. Nevertheless i am not gonna let my blog jus die off like tat.. so here goes.. be patient with me k.. i try to make it short and sweet.

Di saat ini.. aku rasa badanku tidak larat lagik.. Mana ketidak asyik lari sana sini. terkejar kejar.. Bukan ku tak suka kerja di Zara tetapi ada sebab sebabnya yang buat hatiku berat untuk berjuang lagi bersama Zara. Fakta utama adalah perangai bodoh sombong dan panas baran kedua dua manager ku di Mens dept. Tak faham? biarku huraikan apa yg jadik..

Ada saat tu aku terpaksa mengambil mc kerna ulcer dipangkal lidah ku amatla sakit sampai tak bolehku bercakap. Esoknya aku dipanggil oleh manager manager ku semata - mata untuk diberi amaran supaya lain kali kalau sakir turun ke Zara dan tunjuk muka dan mereka akan menetapkan bahawa aku betul betul sakit atau tidak dan kalau tidak rabak sgt mereka akan memberi tugas yang ringan, Pabila ku dgr gitu jer hati ku dah menyirap betul nyer tak munasabah, Company apa seh yg memberi alasan macam gituk padahal tidak pun aki diberitahu pasal perkara tersebut dlm contract ku. Sungguh merepek.

Itu tak apa manager baru lak nak tunjuk konon nya dia yg paling berkuasa. kata dia kata dia aja. Ada satu masa tu aku terpaksa pergi dinner break ku lambat kerna kawan ku yg harus pergi sebelum ku pergi lambat, Dan itu bukan salah kiter malah salah kedua - dua manager tu yah mengakibatkan dia pergi dan balik lambat, Lagi ada hati nak marah aku lak dan tanya kenapa aku pergi lambat jadi aku huraikan balik la tu gara gara dia la, Dah tu yg peliknya dia panggil kawan ku dan tanya kenapa dia pergi lambat, Apa tak ada otak ka pompuan. kawan ku pun cakap bukan salah dia, dia pergi lambat kerna manager yg buat dia kuar lambat. Yg bodohnya si manager ni dah tahu salah dia tapi dia tetap nak pertahankan diri dia padahal terpampang tu salah dia. Dah tu malu sendiri, Merepek kan pompuan tu. Ada degree tak semestinya cekap dlm bidang pekerjaan..

Paling aku pantang org bodoh sombong macam gini. Apa lagi kan aku tak nak membuang masa ku lagi. Sudah cukup. Aku akan giat mencari kerja yg tetap.. Insya Allah akan dpt. Mereka ingat apa senang senang apa nak pijak kepalaku, Kan aku dah tunjuk belangku. Walauapa pun aku tetap bersikap professional dgn membuat kerja ku sebaik mungkin. Sampaikan manager yg interview ku memuji ku dan kata aku agak pantas kerna apa yg diajar aku dpt tangkap. Apa lagi aku tak kasi muka aku menyambut pujian dia dgn berkata "i told u already during the interview i am a fast learner" Bukan nak megah tetapi ingin memberi tahu dia bahawa aku tetap dgn kataku. Orang macam gini tak boleh kasi muka.

Jadi dipendek kan cerita mereka merayu ku untuk jgn pergi dan berkhidmat ngan mereka. Pergi mampus. Padaku kalau sesebuah company yg tak jaga ihwal pekerjanya dgn baik tak payah buang masa kiter berkhidmat dgn mereka kerna mereka tak berterima kasih akan apa yg kiter buat, Mereka hanya ingin mempergunakan kiter macam slaves.. Pekerja pun ada otak. dah mereka pun manusia. Puas ati aku kerja balik dia office line lagi banyak benefit dan only kerja weekdays weekend can rest. ni kat Zara waktu kerja tak tentu dan kerja berutngkus lumus sehingga 12 jam pun kiter bukanya dpt overtime pay nak claim hrs pun tak dpt. Betulnya tak munasabah. Aku akan tetap dgn pendirianku. Aku tak akan putus asa dlm mencari kerja yg stabil biarla aku merana sekarang supaya masa depan ku cerah...Hari terakhir ku adalah cukup bulan ni..